Thursday, September 30, 2021

busy & scheduled finally ...

   A productive few days ... I got my Halloween tree put up.  Once again, I was surprised by what wasn't in the box than what was.  I had limited the decorations I could take with me to just small tubs and left 98% of my seasonal decorations in Wisconsin with the intent of going back to get them.  The person who bought the contents of my storage unit at auction got some very good holiday decorations, many of them irreplaceable.  Oh well.  It is what it is.

  The buzzard is the newest addition to the Halloween box, and it feels very appropriate for me this year.  I thought about looking for new ornaments to fill up the tree but have decided to wait and see what next year brings.  It isn't my most favorite holiday, and the only reason I have these ornaments is that Hallmark started creating some in of their Beauty of Birds Christmas line that I've been collecting for 20some years now.

  I was gifted a gold loveseat in a crushed velvet fabric as part of a furniture swap my friend Nancy did to get a larger sofa for her house.  The cats seem to like it, and I'm sure it will be nice and cozy in the winter because it is in the room that gets the best heat downstairs.  We've already had some cold mornings, lots of thick fog, and I caught the girls snuggling on their window seat.  It's not really built for the weight of both of them, and Lucy has been hogging it lately.  I guess her mom had enough of that and moved in on her.  Hard to believe that Lucy will turn five on October 1st.

 The mandala decal for the dresser arrived and looks amazing.  I can't wait for the handles to arrive so I can complete it and put the decor I've selected on top.  The shelves I had ordered (on sale!) arrived and I will get them hung on the wall above this weekend.  I was going to paint them in matching paint, but will leave them white since much of what will go on them will be the aqua/teal colors and I don't want to overwhelm the corner with that color palette.   I found a short black lamp with a chicken wire shade that I will weave fabric through, and will use the bottom to hang my dangle earrings.

  I also picked up an old chair in need of some repair and upcycling that will be the new "throne" for my peace lily in the living room.  The way the cushion is on the chair that it currently sits on makes it a little unstable if bumped, and I'd rather have it firmly flat.  I put some wood screws in the legs and crossbars to make them sturdier and sanded all the loose varnish off the seat from where rain and weather had damaged it.  The legs and back are hunter green, and I decided to just leave it as is without painting any of it.  I might at some point get a courser sanding block and sand it again, but for now, it looks just fine the way it is.

  Tuesday evening I swapped out the showerhead for a different one with a hand-held attachment.  It has an extra-long hose on it which will make giving Charlie a bath much easier.  I've come to the conclusion that he must not be a full-blooded Shih Tzu because his hair does not grow as long as the show dogs do.  I will probably continue to trim his hair as needed and bathe him on the same day (so long as he doesn't chase any more skunks).

  When this publishes at 330a on Thursday, Sept 30th I will be climbing into a car for a three-ish-hour drive to WVU to have my liver biopsy done.  I got tired of being nice and patient, so I called the radiology department and politely demanded to be put on the schedule.  It worked, and I didn't even have to use my cranky teacher voice.  The procedure is scheduled for 730a and should take 4-5 hours total, including recovery time.  I'm hoping to be home by 5p to update everyone.  I doubt that I will have any results, other than the fact that I survived it.  I'm praying and claiming that when they take the CT scan to mark the location that there will be nothing there for them to biopsy.

Tuesday, September 28, 2021

Words for Wednesday

  This Writing Challenge was started by Delores a long time ago. Computer issues led her to bow out for a while, and now Words for/on Wednesday is provided by a number of people around the world and has become a movable feast, with [Elephant's Child in Australia] acting as moderator.

   Essentially the aim is to encourage us to write. Each Tuesday or Wednesday (depending on time zones and hemispheres) we are given a choice of prompts: which can be words, phrases, music, or an image. What we do with those prompts is up to us: a short story, prose, a song, a poem, or ignoring them. We can use some or all of the prompts, and mixing and matching are encouraged.

   Some of us put our creation in comments on the post, and others post on their own blog. It is always wonderful if as many people as possible joined in this fun challenge, which includes cheering on the other participants.   You may post on Elephant's Child's blog, here, or your own blog.  If you are posting on your own blog - please share a link on Elephant's Child's blog or here so that I, and other participants, can come along and applaud.

The Challenge:  They say a picture is worth 1,000 words.  Write at least 100 words about the image below.

Sunday, September 26, 2021

Sunday ...

 It has been a busy weekend, and I'm exhausted even tho my do-do-to-do list has not even been touched.  Friday evening I attended a women's meeting with church and made some new friends.  Saturday evening an end-of-summer cookout at church.  This morning, I went to church then scrounged around a moving free-for-all to get some items.  I scored two shepherds hooks like the one I have and a trellis.

I mail-ordered seeds for a flowering Cup and Saucer vine annual (Latin name: Cobaea scandens) to plant in the spring.   If I can find an established clematis perennial at Walmart in the spring, I will plant those too.  I might put my feeders in the front this winter since the cats like watching the birds.  It also keeps the spent seeds from making the back patio slick and smelly.

I picked up this natural wood birdhouse at the free-for-all and found two wren houses on clearance at the hardware store.  I think the back porch will become the area for birdhouses.  I know the breeding season is over for the year, but I'm hoping that by next year, the new birdhouses will be weathered and not smell or look new which may make them more appealing to the wrens.

Adding to my house plant menagerie is this wine/baker's rack which is now in my living room by a window that will get good winter sun, and stay warmer than the kitchen does.
Tomorrow, my friend Nancy is going to claim a wood chair I saw today that would not have fit in her car after getting the rack and hooks in the back seat.  It needs to be refinished/repainted and then will be used for a large peace lily.  Before and after pictures will come.

Friday, September 24, 2021

adventures in cooking ...

 Last Sunday I was experimenting with some recipes that I had pulled out of magazines.  I'm a firm believer that recipes are just basic guidelines and suggestions, and not always written in stone.  

Unless they are, of course, literally written in stone.

Months ago, I found a recipe for a savory waffle with cheese and bacon that can be used for making breakfast egg sandwiches but did not have a waffle maker.   When I was gifted one last week from someone who is moving would not be taking theirs, I no longer had an excuse to not make them.  Naturally, I put my own spin on them by using a diabetic-friendly waffle batter, rather than white flour.

Needless to say, they were quite good just by themselves, and I froze six of them to pop into the toaster oven for breakfast.

Next, I modified an orzo recipe I found.  The original recipe called for roasted cherry tomatoes, but I prefer sundried tomatoes and used those.  Because it also called for olive oil, I instead used the oil from the jar of sundried tomatoes with just a little bit of plain olive oil added to make up the quantity needed.  I substituted balsamic vinegar for red wine vinegar and fresh spinach for parsley.  I did toast over-toast the pine nuts ~ it was a learning moment ~ and added black olives to the recipe.  It called for grated Parmesan cheese, but I used shredded and added it to the entire bowl, rather than using it just as a serving topper.  As written, it was to be served warm as a main course or side (the pine nuts adding protein if served as the main course), but I also enjoyed it as a cold salad later in the week for lunch.

If you keep up with my bucket list there on the right, trying macaron cookies was added a few weeks ago.  I'd always wondered what they tasted like because they seem to require a certain skill to make them, and are difficult to find.  I found a company in Miami, FL that ships them so decided to check them off my list and ordered two dozen.

I was not disappointed.  They arrived with cold packs, fresh and very delicious.  I would say that they will last me a few weeks, but that would be a lie.  The remainder of the dozen below were shared with friends and are long gone.  The second dozen will be shared again this evening at a women's meeting at church.  As much as I would love to be greedy and selfish indulgent and eat them all by myself, I'm sure my doctor would argue that I don't need the sugar.  He'd be right of course.  
Darn it.
Healthwise, I'm holding my own.  I'm still waiting to get the liver biopsy done, instead of the Univ of VA, we are trying for WV Univ.  Both are teaching hospitals with excellent staff (I'm told) but a better chance of getting into WVU sooner.   Until it is done, I have to stay off of the meloxicam medication, and that has proven to be an exercise in breathing and mind-over-matter pain control.  I was unaware of how much my arthritis would hurt without it, and how much the medication helped.  I can't even say "on a good day" my pain level is XX because every day on a scale of zero to ten, I'm somewhere between 15-18.  I did get something temporary to help me sleep, but during the day I just have to suck it up buttercup.

I don't have much of an appetite, in spite of macarons and new recipes, so my weight continues to be a number I can't remember being before.  If it had been intentional, I'd be thrilled.  But it wasn't, so I'm not sure what to think.

Fall has begun here, with the leaves on trees slowing changing.  This morning was cold and foggy, and I actually had to turn the heat on for a while just to bring the house up to 66F.  Halloween is around the corner, and I've been told that I can expect between 50-100 candy-seeking monsters that night.  A big change from the 5-10 kids we would get in Wisconsin each year.  I'm planning on sitting outside to greet the little demons before they can ring the bell, tho I'm sure Charlie will be going crazy regardless.  At least by sitting outside, there will be less chance of him sneaking out the door and doing his own terrorizing.  I will be sure to get pictures to share.

Tuesday, September 21, 2021

Words for Wednesday

  This Writing Challenge was started by Delores a long time ago. Computer issues led her to bow out for a while, and now Words for/on Wednesday is provided by a number of people around the world and has become a movable feast, with [Elephant's Child in Australia] acting as moderator.

   Essentially the aim is to encourage us to write. Each Tuesday or Wednesday (depending on time zones and hemispheres) we are given a choice of prompts: which can be words, phrases, music, or an image. What we do with those prompts is up to us: a short story, prose, a song, a poem, or ignoring them. We can use some or all of the prompts, and mixing and matching are encouraged.

   Some of us put our creation in comments on the post, and others post on their own blog. It is always wonderful if as many people as possible joined in this fun challenge, which includes cheering on the other participants.   You may post on Elephant's Child's blog, here, or your own blog.  If you are posting on your own blog - please share a link on Elephant's Child's blog or here so that I, and other participants, can come along and applaud.

The Challenge:  They say a picture is worth 1,000 words.  Write at least 100 words about the image below.


Sunday, September 19, 2021

Sunday

 Just a bit of what I have been working on this week.


A free-to-me dresser got a makeover.
New handles have been ordered and a black mandala stencil decal.
Unfortunately, it will be a few weeks before they arrive so I  will post another picture when they do.


This was also free-to-me, no makeover needed. It is exactly what I was looking for in my travel wall area. The jar was hand blown in the Nice, France area in the '70s. Inlaid wood box from Germany,  also from the '70s.


I completed a yoga area in my bedroom, no more excuses. My weight continues to drop, I'm at a number now I haven't seen in 30 years. Time to tone what is left.


Thursday, September 16, 2021

the good, the bad, & the ugly

 The good news is that Tuesday's colonoscopy went according to schedule and the surgeon did not find any obvious cancerous masses or apparent malignancies.  He did find ulcerative colitis and took biopsies of those, but eh been there done that uncomfortable but not fatal as far as I know.  I did lose another 10# during the prep that I really didn't need to lose.  💩Harold appears to now be a non-entity in my life (in more ways than one) and I believe that prayers are so powerful and God is amazing.

 The bad news is that Monday's liver biopsy was canceled because the idiot person who called me to review my meds and schedule it did not inform me that I would need to be off the mobic/meloxicam I take for my arthritis for 10 days prior.  This I found out after an hour+ drive, blood draws for labs, and consult with the radiologist who would be doing the procedure.

 The gift horse in that was that after speaking with the radiologist, I didn't have much confidence in his ability to do the procedure and am trying to get it done at the Univ of Virginia (UVA) hospital.  Because of where the mass in my liver (henceforth known as Duh-Wayne) is located, they would not be able to do the biopsy from my right side through my ribs as normal ones are done.  Instead, they would go in through my chest, slightly between my heart and stomach.  A much, much higher risk.

 The ugly part of Monday came with needing to get a Covid test done for Tuesday, and the hospital (RGH) where I was waiting to find out they were idiots for the liver biopsy refused to give it to me because the colonoscopy was going to be done at a different hospital (ARH).  Apparently, RGH does not understand the benefits of cooperating with other hospitals in the area during a pandemic.  To say that I was a little angry at this turn of events would be a serious understatement.  Instead, I had to get to ARH two hours early so that they could do the test there prior to the procedure.

  I'm waiting now to hear back from the oncologist if the liver biopsy can be moved to UVA, and if they will be able to schedule a PET scan in the meantime since the earliest now I would be able to get the biopsy done with be 27 Sept.

Tuesday, September 14, 2021

Words for Wednesday

  This Writing Challenge was started by Delores a long time ago. Computer issues led her to bow out for a while, and now Words for/on Wednesday is provided by a number of people around the world and has become a movable feast, with [Elephant's Child in Australia] acting as moderator.

   Essentially the aim is to encourage us to write. Each Tuesday or Wednesday (depending on time zones and hemispheres) we are given a choice of prompts: which can be words, phrases, music, or an image. What we do with those prompts is up to us: a short story, prose, a song, a poem, or ignoring them. We can use some or all of the prompts, and mixing and matching are encouraged.

   Some of us put our creation in comments on the post, and others post on their own blog. It is always wonderful if as many people as possible joined in this fun challenge, which includes cheering on the other participants.   You may post on Elephant's Child's blog, here, or your own blog.  If you are posting on your own blog - please share a link on Elephant's Child's blog or here so that I, and other participants, can come along and applaud.

The Challenge:  They say a picture is worth 1,000 words.  Write at least 100 words about the image below.



Sunday, September 12, 2021

walkabouts ...

 Charlie dragged me to a bench one afternoon that I didn't realize existed.  Since then, we have made getting out to one of the nearby park benches a part of our late afternoon routines.

This bench is on the same side of the bridge as my house is, but across Howard's Creek from where I live.

This one is across the road from the bridge, on the same side of the creek.  The sound of the falls was very relaxing.  People tend to fish for trout here more than the other side of the bridge because the water is deeper.
Charlie seems to enjoy just watching for people passing by.

Charlie didn't accompany me on this walk because it is downtown, on the way to/from the post office.  The view of the bridge is the one near my house that we walk across to the park benches.

informed decisions

 I'm typing this between "necessity" runs because I'm also prepping for a colonoscopy on Tuesday.  Why so early, you might ask?  Well, it's because I have my liver biopsy in Beckley on Monday and to avoid an embarrassing accident while trying to hold still for the radiologist I started my prep on Saturday.

Friday I had a virtual consult with the NEW surgeon doing the procedure on Tuesday.  As usual, he gave me some additional information not disclosed by the local surgeon or radiologist and it rocked me.  The liver mass that I had believed was the hemangioma I've known about for decades, isn't it at all.  It is a different ~ new ~ mass in a completely different location of my liver.  So it wasn't something existing that grew, it is something that grew out of nothing.

I left a message for the cancer center and later spoke to the nurse practitioner on my "case."  I asked if when they have information ~ new or old ~ if they could please discuss everything with me just to make sure I am aware of ALL of it.  I can't make informed decisions if I'm not being informed of everything that is seen, found, or happening.  

The CT scans were done on 13 July, and based on what the radiologist told my general practice physician, an MRI that focused only on my liver was done on 6 August.  I canceled the colonoscopy scheduled for 20 August based on the radiologist and local surgeon who was to do it feeling that the focus should be on the liver, not my colon.

It was not until the oncologist called me the afternoon before my consultation with him on 27 August that I was told that his main concern was actually a mass he saw on my colon in the original CT scan from July.  The liver and lymph nodes were of secondary concern to him.  This was unexpected news to me at the time and had I known that there was anything of concern in my colon, I would not have canceled the colonoscopy in August.

I cannot fault my GP.  He's not a trained radiologist, or surgeon, and had to rely on the knowledge and education of those two specialists.  But the fact that the local specialists overlooked what is going on with my colon and did not put any sense of urgency on getting the colonoscopy done was extremely disheartening.  When the local surgeon was unable to do it on 3 September because of a boil water notice, and eventually wanted to reschedule it for the first part of October, there was still no sense of urgency.

I will, however, fault my own lack of questioning for specifics or clarification.  If this was in pre-COVID-19 days, I would have had follow-up appointments in the office, where images would be shown to me and explained.  Where I could point and ask "what is that?" and have a better understanding of what they saw.  My only job in all of this process is to advocate for myself.  Not to blindly trust.  To ask questions.  Demand explanations. Expect answers and clarification.  Require visual evidence.

I've been failing at that because all of this has come as a shock to my senses.  But no more.

Thursday, September 9, 2021

The haunted view ~ Wednesday's writing

This view has haunted me for two decades now.  It was taken Labor Day weekend 2001, from the restaurant and gift shop level of one of the World Trade Center towers.

I was there in New York that day with friends from Connecticut, wandering around downtown.  Seeing the Wall Street bull statue.  Flirting shamelessly Waving at handsome firefighters as they cleaned their rigs.  We rode out to the Statue of Liberty on one of the ferries, and I had a picture taken of my friend and me with the WTC towers in the background.

A week later, I was flying from Florida to New Jersey for a business conference.  I was scheduled on connecting flight out of Atlanta, Georgia when the pilot made us aware that our connecting flights were delayed and to check with the counter when we landed for options.  When we landed, all flights were canceled and I called the office to ask them to make my counterparts in NJ aware I would be delayed.

The secretary didn't give me a chance to speak.  She asked where I was, and I told her in Atlanta.  "Get out of there now," she said.  "Get out of there and come home now."  I passed a television as I walked towards one of the rental car counters and didn't stop to see much other than the Pentagon in flames.  I asked her what was happening, and all she said was to get out of there as quickly as I could.

The Avis counter said that they could not release any cars without a reservation, so I stood in front of her and called the 800 number to make a reservation.  When they gave me the confirmation number, I handed her my phone.  She handed me keys and I was out of the airport and on the road 20 minutes before it was locked down by security.

I listened to the radio news during the five-hour drive home.  I screamed and cried.  Tried to get through to a friend who worked at the Pentagon.  I thought about the people I had seen working in the tower that day I was there.  The lines of tourists waiting for the elevator ride to the top.  The firemen would now be running into the unknown.  I thought about that view from the top, and how far away the ground seemed.  So far away that people couldn't even be seen, and cars looked like ants running back and forth.  I thought about the fear and terror they must have felt, that their family and friends must have felt.  I ached for all of them.  I ached for all of us.

My friend was okay.  He had not gone to work that day after spending the night in the ER with chest pains.  Perhaps a premonition that saved his life.  It was almost a week before I could get my own car from the airport lot and return the rental because of the security lockdown at our local airport.  Because I worked at a military base at the time, it was two weeks before we were able to go back to work.

My life changed a lot on that day driving home from Atlanta.  I had a lot of "what-if" thoughts that put how short and precious life was into perspective.  What if they had attacked the weekend before?   Who would I have made my last call to?  What would I wish I could have done instead of putting it off?

We never know how much time we are granted in life.  Make the most of it.  Today.  Don't wait for the "perfect" time.  Don't hesitate to tell someone you care about them.  All we ever have is today, this moment.  Nothing else is guaranteed.

Tuesday, September 7, 2021

Words for Wednesday

  This Writing Challenge was started by Delores a long time ago. Computer issues led her to bow out for a while, and now Words for/on Wednesday is provided by a number of people around the world and has become a movable feast, with [Elephant's Child in Australia] acting as moderator.

   Essentially the aim is to encourage us to write. Each Tuesday or Wednesday (depending on time zones and hemispheres) we are given a choice of prompts: which can be words, phrases, music, or an image. What we do with those prompts is up to us: a short story, prose, a song, a poem, or ignoring them. We can use some or all of the prompts, and mixing and matching are encouraged.

   Some of us put our creation in comments on the post, and others post on their own blog. It is always wonderful if as many people as possible joined in this fun challenge, which includes cheering on the other participants.   You may post on Elephant's Child's blog, here, or your own blog.  If you are posting on your own blog - please share a link on Elephant's Child's blog or here so that I, and other participants, can come along and applaud.

The Challenge:  They say a picture is worth 1,000 words.  Write at least 100 words about the image below.

Sunday, September 5, 2021

sunday ...

 Just a few things from the past week ...

I made a few new friends on Saturday, walking and feeding for guests at The Heritage House next door.

This is Spanky, a very sweet boy


This brick wall is Jorge, who is just a barrel of fun on the run.

This beautiful, shy girl is Malley.

 Thursday night, Charlie dragged me (literally) to this park bench just across the creek from us.  I didn't even know it was there.  We have had enough rain to fill the creek for the ducks ... and the fish(ermen).


  If naming my colon mass after my ex wasn't enough to make you realize I have a warped sense of humor, maybe the latest craft project will.  I've been looking for some bathroom humor but wanted it to be semi-appropriate and most of all, able to make me laugh.  I saw this phrase on a poster but didn't want a month for it to arrive on a slow boat from China.

Friday, September 3, 2021

friday ...

 If life was a well-oiled machine, I would at this moment be pleasantly under anesthesia, dreaming of pizzas, while a camera was taking a scenic tour of my interior tunnels.

 However, life seldom goes as planned, and my procedure was canceled due to an issue with the water supply at the hospital so I am now in quarantine until it can be rescheduled (hopefully quickly because I am very tired of being isolated and relying on mail-order to shop).  

 We have had an increase in the Delta strain of Covid-19 in this area, and to avoid having to take additional time off work (again) for a ten-second test to show I have not been exposed to the virus, I must avoid possible exposure until the procedure is done.  There are too many anti-vaxxers and anti-maskers here for my comfort.

 In my email inbox, this morning was a timely article on [colon cancer symptoms] from Shape magazine.  It was interesting to read because of all the possible symptoms they listed, the only one I was aware of was the unintentional and rapid weight loss.  The anemia I found out later after seeing a doctor for something completely unrelated.  My only known risk factor was ulcerative colitis some 25 years prior that stopped when I divorced him.  'Nuf said on that.  I found out an uncle had colon cancer after the possibility of having it was mentioned to a cousin.

 With that being said (and without wanting to go on a nag about getting colonoscopies as often as I nagged once about a time about the need to continue getting at least every two years a PAP test done even after a hysterectomy), I will only ask that you, dear reader, take charge of your health.  Don't put off, postpone, or ignore any routine health procedures or annoying symptoms.  True, getting a colonoscopy is not an entirely pleasant experience as far as the prep goes.  But at least you are not awake and conscious during the procedure itself.

 I firmly believe that if hospitals had not been overwhelmed in 2020 from Covid-19, and non-emergency procedures canceled ... I could have been diagnosed sooner instead of when my cancer was at a probable Stage 4.

Wednesday, September 1, 2021

Words on Wednesday ~ 9/1

Germany.
Sometimes dark and mysterious.
Gothic and modern at the same time.  
The language can vary from north to south, east to west.
Rich in history, and not only bad memories.
Childhood memories.  Adventures.  Volksmarches.
Brownies. Girl Scouts.  Elementary School.
Art.  Sculpture.  Cathedrals.  Castles.  Museums.  Architecture.
The beginnings of the machine printed page.
Music.  Classical.  Om pah pah.  Om pah pah.
Dancing.  Polka.  Celebration.
Christmas markets.  Crafts.
Food ... oh.my.gosh. THE food.
Bratwurst. Brot. Schnitzel. Salats. Käse.  Pommes frittes.
Haribo candies.  Gingerbread.  Pretzels.
Chocolate.  Cookies.
Beers.  Wines.  Gluhwein.  Brandy.
Mountains.  Beaches.  Rivers. Vineyards.
Friendly.  Laughter.  Welcoming.
Friends.  Roots.  Family.
Germany.
Always Home.