Saturday, October 3, 2026
Thursday, October 1, 2026
Circling
I've been away for a while ... it would be easy to say (but it would be a lie) that I was working on this or that. This book. That DIY art project.
But in reality, I've been floundering. Circling the drain, so to speak.
The September 2025 death of Sue, The Elephant's Child, a blogger friend of 20ish, years rocked my world worse than the death of either of my parents. I can't even explain why since we'd never met in real life. Perhaps because it was just so unexpected.
I'm really good at pretending I'm fine, it's all fine. But I really wasn't, it really wasn't.
Shortly after her death, the remains of my nephew were found. I'd long suspected he was gone and not just on a walkabout. But it still hurt deeply because of all the guilt I carried. Did he know how much I loved him? Did he know I would have done anything to help him?
ChatGPT AI sketch of Charlie
Pencil colored by me.
Last month my dog had to be put down because he was in so much pain.
Did he know how much I loved him? Did he know I would have done anything to help him?
I'm not sure if I'm back to blogging again. But I'm trying ...
Still 💔 ... Ci
Friday, November 21, 2025
words recaptured ...
This story was originally posted on my "Letting the Words Escape" blog on 21 November 2017 as part of the Words for Wednesday writing challenge. I thought I had lost all those posts when I foolishly deleted the blog but just found an external drive where I had backed them up to. Yay for me not being a total dork!
My storyline then was partially based on actual historical facts. My great-great-etc-great-grandfather, George Soule, came over on the Mayflower as an indentured servant and kept the log on the Mayflower. Elinor Billington did spend time in the stocks for slandering John Doane. Doane was married to a woman named Ana, but the affair is fictional (as far as I know anyway). John Billington (the elder) was in fact hung for the murder of John Newcomen and claimed before his hanging that he was an innocent man even though there was bad blood between the two men. This week we meet Francis Billington, son of John and Elinor Billington. The year is 1644.
Francis walked slowly in the woods along the frozen river, looking for maple trees to which he could attach a bucket and collect the sweet sap that would be boiled down to make the syrup and sugar he sold to make a living. It had been a harsh winter, and he had become disillusioned with life in the New World and had lost interest lately in doing much more than just what was necessary to keep food on their table.
His mother had passed away the winter before, and he felt lonelier than ever, with no one he could confide in. It had been 17 years since his older brother, John [the younger], had died, and 14 since his father. Although he had been married to Christian for ten years, she had her hands full with their six children and was pregnant yet again. His shoulders momentarily shrugged as a sob escaped him, thinking of the three children they had lost early on in her pregnancies.
Life may have been hard if they had stayed in England, but it wouldn't have been as harsh. They might have stayed in a city with a respectable physician or midwife, but he knew it was naive of him to think that it could have been better. He might have been able to find work or become a tradesman, but he also might never have met Christian. As difficult as it was to provide for his family, the highlight of each evening was coming home to his children.
He stopped as he heard the sound of something dashing through the woods just ahead of him. In the fading light, he knew he had just one chance to possibly shoot a deer which would provide meat for them for the next month. Dropping to one knee in the snow, he quietly drew his muzzleloader free and filled it with gunpowder and buckshot.
Sobbing she fell to the floor, feeling the baby within her give a kick to her ribs as her emotions got the best of her once more that day. She was grateful to feel the baby was still alive, but her exhaustion and emotions were beginning to wear on her.
The oldest three children came running from the one bedroom that all six of them shared.
"What is it, Mother? What happened?"
She pulled the children to her on the now muddy dirt floor of the cabin, frightening them to begin crying as well.
"Nothing, dears. Ma just had a scare, and I dropped a candle. It caught sissy's doll on fire. Help me to clean up and get some hot water started for supper. Perhaps Father was able to shoot something to put in the water for dinner tonight."
"I hope so," whined the youngest of the three, "I'm so 'ungry. If I have to eat another potato this week, I fear I shall become one!"
Laughing now, Christian pulled the children closer to her, giving a kiss to the top of each of their heads.
"Let us pray then that God will provide us with something other than potatoes for supper!"
My storyline then was partially based on actual historical facts. My great-great-etc-great-grandfather, George Soule, came over on the Mayflower as an indentured servant and kept the log on the Mayflower. Elinor Billington did spend time in the stocks for slandering John Doane. Doane was married to a woman named Ana, but the affair is fictional (as far as I know anyway). John Billington (the elder) was in fact hung for the murder of John Newcomen and claimed before his hanging that he was an innocent man even though there was bad blood between the two men. This week we meet Francis Billington, son of John and Elinor Billington. The year is 1644.
Francis walked slowly in the woods along the frozen river, looking for maple trees to which he could attach a bucket and collect the sweet sap that would be boiled down to make the syrup and sugar he sold to make a living. It had been a harsh winter, and he had become disillusioned with life in the New World and had lost interest lately in doing much more than just what was necessary to keep food on their table.
His mother had passed away the winter before, and he felt lonelier than ever, with no one he could confide in. It had been 17 years since his older brother, John [the younger], had died, and 14 since his father. Although he had been married to Christian for ten years, she had her hands full with their six children and was pregnant yet again. His shoulders momentarily shrugged as a sob escaped him, thinking of the three children they had lost early on in her pregnancies.
Life may have been hard if they had stayed in England, but it wouldn't have been as harsh. They might have stayed in a city with a respectable physician or midwife, but he knew it was naive of him to think that it could have been better. He might have been able to find work or become a tradesman, but he also might never have met Christian. As difficult as it was to provide for his family, the highlight of each evening was coming home to his children.
He stopped as he heard the sound of something dashing through the woods just ahead of him. In the fading light, he knew he had just one chance to possibly shoot a deer which would provide meat for them for the next month. Dropping to one knee in the snow, he quietly drew his muzzleloader free and filled it with gunpowder and buckshot.
~ * ~
Christian jumped as she heard the sound of a gunshot in the distance, shaking hot wax onto her hand from the candle she was using to light the others in their crowded cabin. The burning wax caused her to drop the candle, catching a rag doll on the floor that belonged to one of the younger children on fire. She screamed and grabbed a pail of water near the fireplace, throwing it onto the flames before they could grow any larger. Sobbing she fell to the floor, feeling the baby within her give a kick to her ribs as her emotions got the best of her once more that day. She was grateful to feel the baby was still alive, but her exhaustion and emotions were beginning to wear on her.
The oldest three children came running from the one bedroom that all six of them shared.
"What is it, Mother? What happened?"
She pulled the children to her on the now muddy dirt floor of the cabin, frightening them to begin crying as well.
"Nothing, dears. Ma just had a scare, and I dropped a candle. It caught sissy's doll on fire. Help me to clean up and get some hot water started for supper. Perhaps Father was able to shoot something to put in the water for dinner tonight."
"I hope so," whined the youngest of the three, "I'm so 'ungry. If I have to eat another potato this week, I fear I shall become one!"
Laughing now, Christian pulled the children closer to her, giving a kiss to the top of each of their heads.
"Let us pray then that God will provide us with something other than potatoes for supper!"
Sunday, November 16, 2025
thoughts from left field ...
My "whenever it feels like blooming" cactus has exploded in blossoms.
I'm not complaining.
The knee is healing very well. Physical therapist is impressed with my progress. I should transition to outpatient PT in the next two weeks.
Drove into Lexington with a friend this past Thursday and saw the Virginia Military Institute [<link] campus for the first time. Wow is really all I can say. It was impressive! I definitely want to go back when I can walk more because there were a few little shops we passed that need more browsing time.
Stopped for lunch at Foothill Momma's BBQ Juke Joint [<FB page link]. We both had the catfish platter, and it was delicious!
Next door to the restaurant was a local farm market with more apple "blends" (what exactly do you call them? breeds? strains? flavors?) than I knew existed. I might have bought one of each that I'd never heard of before and only wish I'd taken pictures of the names and descriptions because now I have an easy dozen apples I'll never be able to identify or find again. They didn't come with those little stickers that say "Gala," "Pink Lady," "Golden Delicious," or "Granny Smith" that I could put on the front of the refrigerator to remind me which one I liked best.
A random thought from left field last week while watching a vampire movie...
Why would you wear a white t-shirt to a vampire fight?
You know that vampire goo has got to stain like crazy, and if you are trying to make a broad daylight getaway, it is going to be a little bit hard to blend in with the normies if you are wearing a blood goo and gore-stained white shirt.
Clearly, I need to find something to do with my time because these out of the ballpark random thoughts are getting a little out of hand.
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